28th July 2005
menggeletar lagi....
seperti berkali-kali....
sapaan ini menghampiri lagi...
menahan rasa ketagihan ini...
berpeluh lagi...
seperti semalam hari...
menanti nyawa dicabut lagi...
membuih rasa ketagihan ini...
berlari lagi..
seperti sesuatu dekat menghampiri...
mataku bagai ditumbuk bertubi...
rebah harungi ketagihan ini...
berdebar lagi...
di kala ini...
menunggu tiba hari itu lagi...
kotakan segala ketagihan ini...........................
9.45 am
p/s: JK....ayat "addiction" kamu inspired me to write this....dari kelmarin malam...hehe...
psst..... im still smiling...awww
*addiction_ here refers to them yummmyYumm Yumm bagel sandwhich with chickenMayo at superSandwhich which i bought yesterday....woooof....been days since ive been craving for it......wwooooofff......
(*noodz* ini xplanation untuk u...nanti u ingat i dok Shoot la plak..har har har)
**c h e e r s**
28 July 2005
27 July 2005
keepin a goodHeart
27th July 2005
i wanted to write about last nite. ive got bills to pay...fillings to do...packing (gosh one more week to go) and talk about the formal dinner i went. i wanted to tell JK how beautiful i was lastNite n that i was in the wrong crowd (as always..)...heheh..but i feel i need to type about this
this mornin as i was smilling my way to office n listening to sime indonGrooves...(im Lovin every softSong they made k.....yish..hehe)
and then i saw him.
(tv 3929)**
i always get xcited e'Time i see his car...he would as well...
its just that its the thing of a past now.
n i wish it didnt end..
funny how we met. . he made fun of my name.....i liked the attention...
i would say it was a 3day affair at PICC*..
we both would die for our country...only he is literaLy doin it...
suddenly we see each other on the road...like almost all the time
wjt73 and tv 3929 on the hyway. what do u xpect...our offices r right next to each other.
we would sms when we actually do meet on the road.
i would start my day wit a big warm smile after ....he would as well...
its just that..its the thing of the past now...
he's got a nice warm face...something rare u see in his sort of service...
what attracted me the most...was his smile. he's got a sweet smile for the service he is in...
he looks blur most of the time......but i just love to see him smile...n would do anything to see it again...
he showed me one of his gun (har har har....gotta love making them gun jokes)..
n i's always feel protected walking beside him...njoyin LateCoffee wit him...n i thnk he likes my company as well..
he got sick recentLy...n i was worried about him...he had a toothAche as well n didnt want to go to the clinic...i had to force him by talking it out late nites.....n he still wouldnt go.....till he got sick...then he took a day off..
that whole day..i prayed he'd b fine. called him up to check.....but he didnt asnwer..sms him to check....he didnt asnwer....he's living alone...n i think that was what made me worry the most.....
besides that....earlier on ...he was telling me about noOne taking care of him..n that noReal frends ever took care or took concern about him..his got all them joLyFrends but noReal frend to save his day..
and that was like a calling for me....i felt i had a duty to make sure this bodyGuard of the country will b fine n never feel down..... ever!..
i told myself. "im his hero. i wanna be his hero"
n so i prayed eTime that i could that god would protect him...give him the xtra shield eTime he's on duty. let his fever go away. let his toothache go away.
and so i kept asking about how he was.
n still no answer.
in the end he told me that he is fine n that i dont need to take care of him n that he apologze for not anwering me...cause he was fast asleep...
i went a step back.
n went off unnoticed.
i mustve done something wrong..i mustve said something bad
i could be irritating him right now. i could be...
stop doin this gurl. stop bein pathethic.stop makin ureSelf sorry for others.
stop cryin..please stop :(
it broke my heart.
but hey.....we can only help n be there as much n as honest as we can...
but if were not needed...where better place to be ....then be gone...
in life...most times we r not asked to head for ther door. ..
we just got to figure out the right time to leave..
i ..somehow ..never got it right. damn
n then i saw him ..............
cheers!
9.15 am
*PICC-Putrajaya International Convention Centre
**(tv3929)-kereta honda city merah.just like mamanyer, got blue light in it. good stereo.
(i miss u..i really do)
i wanted to write about last nite. ive got bills to pay...fillings to do...packing (gosh one more week to go) and talk about the formal dinner i went. i wanted to tell JK how beautiful i was lastNite n that i was in the wrong crowd (as always..)...heheh..but i feel i need to type about this
this mornin as i was smilling my way to office n listening to sime indonGrooves...(im Lovin every softSong they made k.....yish..hehe)
and then i saw him.
(tv 3929)**
i always get xcited e'Time i see his car...he would as well...
its just that its the thing of a past now.
n i wish it didnt end..
funny how we met. . he made fun of my name.....i liked the attention...
i would say it was a 3day affair at PICC*..
we both would die for our country...only he is literaLy doin it...
suddenly we see each other on the road...like almost all the time
wjt73 and tv 3929 on the hyway. what do u xpect...our offices r right next to each other.
we would sms when we actually do meet on the road.
i would start my day wit a big warm smile after ....he would as well...
its just that..its the thing of the past now...
he's got a nice warm face...something rare u see in his sort of service...
what attracted me the most...was his smile. he's got a sweet smile for the service he is in...
he looks blur most of the time......but i just love to see him smile...n would do anything to see it again...
he showed me one of his gun (har har har....gotta love making them gun jokes)..
n i's always feel protected walking beside him...njoyin LateCoffee wit him...n i thnk he likes my company as well..
he got sick recentLy...n i was worried about him...he had a toothAche as well n didnt want to go to the clinic...i had to force him by talking it out late nites.....n he still wouldnt go.....till he got sick...then he took a day off..
that whole day..i prayed he'd b fine. called him up to check.....but he didnt asnwer..sms him to check....he didnt asnwer....he's living alone...n i think that was what made me worry the most.....
besides that....earlier on ...he was telling me about noOne taking care of him..n that noReal frends ever took care or took concern about him..his got all them joLyFrends but noReal frend to save his day..
and that was like a calling for me....i felt i had a duty to make sure this bodyGuard of the country will b fine n never feel down..... ever!..
i told myself. "im his hero. i wanna be his hero"
n so i prayed eTime that i could that god would protect him...give him the xtra shield eTime he's on duty. let his fever go away. let his toothache go away.
and so i kept asking about how he was.
n still no answer.
in the end he told me that he is fine n that i dont need to take care of him n that he apologze for not anwering me...cause he was fast asleep...
i went a step back.
n went off unnoticed.
i mustve done something wrong..i mustve said something bad
i could be irritating him right now. i could be...
stop doin this gurl. stop bein pathethic.stop makin ureSelf sorry for others.
stop cryin..please stop :(
it broke my heart.
but hey.....we can only help n be there as much n as honest as we can...
but if were not needed...where better place to be ....then be gone...
in life...most times we r not asked to head for ther door. ..
we just got to figure out the right time to leave..
i ..somehow ..never got it right. damn
n then i saw him ..............
cheers!
9.15 am
*PICC-Putrajaya International Convention Centre
**(tv3929)-kereta honda city merah.just like mamanyer, got blue light in it. good stereo.
(i miss u..i really do)
20 July 2005
that feeling....
20th july 2005
u should know that feeling...
that one that makes u tumbling....
or a little bit confusing...
than the one u had arousing.....
u should know that desire...
the one with that fire....
as u drive his minyMiner..
or havin a sixtyNiner....
u should know that game...
the one u put in the frame...
or the way he looked so lame...
n there's noOne else to blame...
u should know that taste....
a little sour with that paste..
but never ever u throw to waste...
leave it loveLy ...leave it laced...
6.30Pm
u should know that feeling...
that one that makes u tumbling....
or a little bit confusing...
than the one u had arousing.....
u should know that desire...
the one with that fire....
as u drive his minyMiner..
or havin a sixtyNiner....
u should know that game...
the one u put in the frame...
or the way he looked so lame...
n there's noOne else to blame...
u should know that taste....
a little sour with that paste..
but never ever u throw to waste...
leave it loveLy ...leave it laced...
6.30Pm
19 July 2005
ode to cenderasari...
19 july 2005
just realised something...
(just now after my daily huffs n puffs of stairs to my office)...
that within 3 weeks ...
(well two for me...cause im goin to shanghai...im goin to shang hai...nananananan...hughuhuhuhu)
my office is finally moving....gosh..its been three years here...
from the day i started services...till nw.....lots happend within those times here in cenderasari..
i remembered those lunch times me, mimi n rudy would race each other on who waits on who....
then we'd head towards dayabumi (happening building for us..huhuhu) to have our lunch...
.a little xtra money, we go bryani..
.a little western....we go Mcd's....
then we'd feel the need to eat healthy (after all them fats..huhuhu)...
n head to the fruit stall...n get some buttered jagung...(huhuhuhuhuhuh)..
and rudy..... remember e'time we head back...we'd pass thru this "air pancut" that i will never look...cause then i need to pee...( " ,)
time changes eThing....mimi left n gotten married..n god knows what ever happend to her....even rudy left cenderasari (gosh i miss u so much)...even mcD's had to move....e'Thing changes....n so nw its my turn....it s my change....
another thing iLL definiteLy miss....is my fav hokkeinMee Daging wit xtra cili padi n teh ais. iLL always remember those morning id que up....waiting to order...wit RM5.20
(exact change...aunty sure suka nyer...hehe) in my hand.....
no i dont eat it there...i'LL bungkus...then bring it up to my office....oh n not forgetting...to take the plastic spoon(which iLL definitely break it)..n them kayu chopsticks wit tonnes n tonnes of tissues.....my eyes will b watery that morning...iLL have a red nose after that....but the pleasure.....mmmmmmm........sure hell gonna miss it...
then of course....now....my breakfasts wit chineseBro n *wishFulHobbit....
gosh.....they would wait for me...no matter how late (n slow...heheh..lembap is more like it) i am........*nasi lemak makcik cantik...*nasi lemak pakcik kecik....
yummy chocs cake (i know....for bfast...can u beileve it)...
nasi goreng mahal (RM2.00 wit nothin in it).....
and them stories of what we did..or who met the day before....im sure hell gonna miss this....tho its gonna b so close to my heart....
people say...that there will always b a time when we say hello....
that we would have to xpect to say goodBye to come along....
n this is the gdBye ive been wondering all along...
cenderasari will never change.....there will always b my building there....i hope i can come back in years to come n show my loves....how it all started....n how it all began...before i actually made it (to wherever i'd b by then)
so heres to cenderasari.
n for the record :
*BAHAGIAN KORPORAT,TINGKAT 3, BLOK A, JALAN CENDERASARI,
50590 KUALA LUMPUR*........................dalam kenangan
cheers!
*wishFulHobbit_beb....tengah njoy2in choc cake tu....ingatlah kat i k....sob sob sob.....
just realised something...
(just now after my daily huffs n puffs of stairs to my office)...
that within 3 weeks ...
(well two for me...cause im goin to shanghai...im goin to shang hai...nananananan...hughuhuhuhu)
my office is finally moving....gosh..its been three years here...
from the day i started services...till nw.....lots happend within those times here in cenderasari..
i remembered those lunch times me, mimi n rudy would race each other on who waits on who....
then we'd head towards dayabumi (happening building for us..huhuhu) to have our lunch...
.a little xtra money, we go bryani..
.a little western....we go Mcd's....
then we'd feel the need to eat healthy (after all them fats..huhuhu)...
n head to the fruit stall...n get some buttered jagung...(huhuhuhuhuhuh)..
and rudy..... remember e'time we head back...we'd pass thru this "air pancut" that i will never look...cause then i need to pee...( " ,)
time changes eThing....mimi left n gotten married..n god knows what ever happend to her....even rudy left cenderasari (gosh i miss u so much)...even mcD's had to move....e'Thing changes....n so nw its my turn....it s my change....
another thing iLL definiteLy miss....is my fav hokkeinMee Daging wit xtra cili padi n teh ais. iLL always remember those morning id que up....waiting to order...wit RM5.20
(exact change...aunty sure suka nyer...hehe) in my hand.....
no i dont eat it there...i'LL bungkus...then bring it up to my office....oh n not forgetting...to take the plastic spoon(which iLL definitely break it)..n them kayu chopsticks wit tonnes n tonnes of tissues.....my eyes will b watery that morning...iLL have a red nose after that....but the pleasure.....mmmmmmm........sure hell gonna miss it...
then of course....now....my breakfasts wit chineseBro n *wishFulHobbit....
gosh.....they would wait for me...no matter how late (n slow...heheh..lembap is more like it) i am........*nasi lemak makcik cantik...*nasi lemak pakcik kecik....
yummy chocs cake (i know....for bfast...can u beileve it)...
nasi goreng mahal (RM2.00 wit nothin in it).....
and them stories of what we did..or who met the day before....im sure hell gonna miss this....tho its gonna b so close to my heart....
people say...that there will always b a time when we say hello....
that we would have to xpect to say goodBye to come along....
n this is the gdBye ive been wondering all along...
cenderasari will never change.....there will always b my building there....i hope i can come back in years to come n show my loves....how it all started....n how it all began...before i actually made it (to wherever i'd b by then)
so heres to cenderasari.
n for the record :
*BAHAGIAN KORPORAT,TINGKAT 3, BLOK A, JALAN CENDERASARI,
50590 KUALA LUMPUR*........................dalam kenangan
cheers!
*wishFulHobbit_beb....tengah njoy2in choc cake tu....ingatlah kat i k....sob sob sob.....
18 July 2005
ive got a heart...
18 July 2005.
ive got a blank heart ...
not sure whats it saying...
not certain where its heading...
ive got a weird heart ...
not sure whats it playing...
not detained to leave it changing...
ive got a nicer heart ....
not certain if that is true...
not reluctant to prove it too...
ive got a nasty heart...
its looks so fade.... it looks so smart...
maybe it needs a little cart...
ive got a lost heart..
not found nor left behind...
mayb it needs a little remind....
cheers!
"where does my heart beats now..." darn that crappy song.....heheheh
ive got a blank heart ...
not sure whats it saying...
not certain where its heading...
ive got a weird heart ...
not sure whats it playing...
not detained to leave it changing...
ive got a nicer heart ....
not certain if that is true...
not reluctant to prove it too...
ive got a nasty heart...
its looks so fade.... it looks so smart...
maybe it needs a little cart...
ive got a lost heart..
not found nor left behind...
mayb it needs a little remind....
cheers!
"where does my heart beats now..." darn that crappy song.....heheheh
14 July 2005
sekebun bunga rosKu (my bed of roses)
14 July 2004
menanti penuh arti...
walaupun hingga mati....
menanti penuh sakti...
ros mekar di hati ini...
menanti penuh debar...
untuk hati penuh tegar..
harum semerbak seluruh legar...
hati terus tersenyum besar....
menanti penuh liku...
mungkinkah akanberlaku..
suatu senja yang berlalu..
kau hadir bersama roseKu..
menanti sepenuh hati...
disini selalu meyakini...
kita akan bertemu lagi...
selain dari alam maya ini...
9.00 am
p/s: khas buat *pakJK*-hehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehehehheheheheheheheheh
menanti penuh arti...
walaupun hingga mati....
menanti penuh sakti...
ros mekar di hati ini...
menanti penuh debar...
untuk hati penuh tegar..
harum semerbak seluruh legar...
hati terus tersenyum besar....
menanti penuh liku...
mungkinkah akanberlaku..
suatu senja yang berlalu..
kau hadir bersama roseKu..
menanti sepenuh hati...
disini selalu meyakini...
kita akan bertemu lagi...
selain dari alam maya ini...
9.00 am
p/s: khas buat *pakJK*-hehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehehehheheheheheheheheh
9 July 2005
oh kota london!
9th July 2005
another terrorist attack? media speculates, claims, reAssure...
n all them bullShit statements that just gives an eye brow lift for a few seconds..till they say ..."info yet to confirm"...bolocks!!
what better time kan. G8 meeting, London hosting the Olimpics 2012. Blair bitchin about bein the hero in iraq. n now wanting to be the hero for africanHunger.perfect timing.
even Xnew York mayor mrRudy was in london (in fact just a few metres from one of the stations affected) when the bombing happend.maybe de'Ja vu for him huh...
hundreds reported dead....then it was 2...then 42...of course hundreds were wounded....its the popular tube in London!..and it happends at rushHour.....tourists comes from e'Where just to feel the cramps n smell of the underground....terrorist pulak sees it as a strategic port to send the message. SMS doesnt seem to do the work huh...
markets starts to crash..blood's a stream. citizens a scream. leaders stand n condemn all terrorist.the same leaders that came terrorising their country in the first place..stop intruding their country. definiteLy no more "messages" will come our way...
we'd better keep our mouths shut. or not blair will start accusing us being the central "markas" for alQaeda. but i dont blame him fully on that accusation. the most wanted bombMaker in Asia who was involve in BaliBimbings was a lecturer in UKM!...n is still loose..
news creates tension.documentary gives an eyeOpener.checkOut that american documetnary on 9/11(fereinheit 911)..where it highlites the stupidity of american leadership (american idiot number one!)..n how the election could've been a scam altogether n of course the events that leads to 911 attacks
kota london bergegar tanpa apa-apa "warning".tidak seperti 911 attack , Bali.damn...n we were worried jogJakarta would get another bombing. blardy news...they distracted us.
so what's next.whats left.?????
5.30pm
another terrorist attack? media speculates, claims, reAssure...
n all them bullShit statements that just gives an eye brow lift for a few seconds..till they say ..."info yet to confirm"...bolocks!!
what better time kan. G8 meeting, London hosting the Olimpics 2012. Blair bitchin about bein the hero in iraq. n now wanting to be the hero for africanHunger.perfect timing.
even Xnew York mayor mrRudy was in london (in fact just a few metres from one of the stations affected) when the bombing happend.maybe de'Ja vu for him huh...
hundreds reported dead....then it was 2...then 42...of course hundreds were wounded....its the popular tube in London!..and it happends at rushHour.....tourists comes from e'Where just to feel the cramps n smell of the underground....terrorist pulak sees it as a strategic port to send the message. SMS doesnt seem to do the work huh...
markets starts to crash..blood's a stream. citizens a scream. leaders stand n condemn all terrorist.the same leaders that came terrorising their country in the first place..stop intruding their country. definiteLy no more "messages" will come our way...
we'd better keep our mouths shut. or not blair will start accusing us being the central "markas" for alQaeda. but i dont blame him fully on that accusation. the most wanted bombMaker in Asia who was involve in BaliBimbings was a lecturer in UKM!...n is still loose..
news creates tension.documentary gives an eyeOpener.checkOut that american documetnary on 9/11(fereinheit 911)..where it highlites the stupidity of american leadership (american idiot number one!)..n how the election could've been a scam altogether n of course the events that leads to 911 attacks
kota london bergegar tanpa apa-apa "warning".tidak seperti 911 attack , Bali.damn...n we were worried jogJakarta would get another bombing. blardy news...they distracted us.
so what's next.whats left.?????
5.30pm
6 July 2005
sometimes its hard
6th July 2005
hy. got miniutes to kill...got nothing else to do ..
but to thrill...
something nonsense up this hill...
i feel a little humid...
waiting for that cupid....or maybe im just stupid...to think this is all morbid...
i felt a little useless...
with this armour up this terrace...i felt a little faithLess...while bein that bitchy mistress...
then there's the occasional worthLess....
that confused people with priceLess....
or this could all be wightLess...if we knew that hidden fortress...
at times i know we're honest...and time its just the purest...
but its when its the hardest...
i need to go the furthest....
cheers!
(i need some real fresh air)
*biggest fan*-I miss U. (kapan mau ke mari?huhuhuhuhuh)
*innocentBeauty*-I miss u more than uLL ever know.hope ure ok. biggestFan kemsalam
*noodz*-where u la dude....
*LostPoet*-I wanna share the strings wit u
*LolliBoi*-look at me..look at me n see how im falling........*aaah*
.Winx.Winx.Winx.Winx.
hy. got miniutes to kill...got nothing else to do ..
but to thrill...
something nonsense up this hill...
i feel a little humid...
waiting for that cupid....or maybe im just stupid...to think this is all morbid...
i felt a little useless...
with this armour up this terrace...i felt a little faithLess...while bein that bitchy mistress...
then there's the occasional worthLess....
that confused people with priceLess....
or this could all be wightLess...if we knew that hidden fortress...
at times i know we're honest...and time its just the purest...
but its when its the hardest...
i need to go the furthest....
cheers!
(i need some real fresh air)
*biggest fan*-I miss U. (kapan mau ke mari?huhuhuhuhuh)
*innocentBeauty*-I miss u more than uLL ever know.hope ure ok. biggestFan kemsalam
*noodz*-where u la dude....
*LostPoet*-I wanna share the strings wit u
*LolliBoi*-look at me..look at me n see how im falling........*aaah*
.Winx.Winx.Winx.Winx.
4 July 2005
...aku kan menghilang....
4 Julai 2005
dalam pekat malam..
dalam gusar kelam...
tiada akan terlarang..
aku akan menghilang.................
dalam sayu senja...
ketika hati bersahaja....
tiada akan membuang...
aku kan menghilang...................
dalam subuh rindu...
tika kita bercumbu....
tiada akan terngiang....
aku akan menghilang.................
dalam bahasa yang sunyi...
tika diketuk bertubi-tubi...
tiada akan menyandang...
aku tetap menghilang.................
(inspiration strongLy by this song by petterPan.)
cheers!
dalam pekat malam..
dalam gusar kelam...
tiada akan terlarang..
aku akan menghilang.................
dalam sayu senja...
ketika hati bersahaja....
tiada akan membuang...
aku kan menghilang...................
dalam subuh rindu...
tika kita bercumbu....
tiada akan terngiang....
aku akan menghilang.................
dalam bahasa yang sunyi...
tika diketuk bertubi-tubi...
tiada akan menyandang...
aku tetap menghilang.................
(inspiration strongLy by this song by petterPan.)
cheers!
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